I’ve been thinking, should I use nicknames too. Cause some people may not like it if you use their real names in blog, but come to think of it, when you describe that incident, people will know who you are referring to, so what’s the use of making up the names? But on the other hand, it’s fun to do so. I haven’t thought up the names yet, so I’ll still use back the old names I used.

I can’t believe, I over-slept again today and Grace had to wait for me for half an hour again. I’m really sorry Grace! Fencing practice was… ok. We saw our “fencing beauty” today with a new hairstyle, 4 very short pigtails stuck at the back of her head, like those when we had pop-song contest in F1. We were all staring and -_-|||| with our mouths wide open when she walked in. Gosh. Just thinking that she will be in our AYP exped group makes me sick. Enough of her lar, I don’t want people to lose their appetite. Went to MTR station to meet Jen, and had to wait for more than I expected. Then we had lunch and hogged the seats there for another while and guess what we did? We went to 繽紛樂園 and played $50 worth coins. But it was fun! (Thanks Jen for the suggestion!). Then practically had to drag ourselves up the hill (drag the fish!) and saw cars going up, which made me wanna bounce in front of a car, make it stop and drive me up. Had JMC rehersal. Cause we couldn’t sing in the internal con. So we have to sing in our assembly lor. That is kinda like… some kind of trade. It was ok except that towards the end, a person to my right said, “(pointing to my direction) someone there was out of tune and she made me out of tune too.” I was like DUH! Jen proved that that person was flat and I heard that from the beginning of the song she was already flat, and she put the blame to someone else (probably me) that they MADE her flat. Gosh!!!…. So angry then….

Then went back home and tried to finish those logos for history. How can she expect some art-stupid people (me!!) to draw them.

It really is a miracle. I’ve been feeling so down a week ago and I’m perfectly alright now again. What’s happened to me? Strange. But I think I should feel happy about being happy, I mean, no one will really want to be sad, will there?

Friday. Last day of school for the week. TIme passes so quickly. Today Bb told us that ula said our assembly was "the best so far".(em... were those the actual words?) Can't remember, but it means it was really good, and that "people were paying their full attention and can get a lot out of them. there are a lot of formats for class assemblies and drama isn't the only one kind." she said that one teacher even came up to her and said it was "jing hei". hahaa.. so funny. and i was so happy that someone told rae that she could hear the music clearly even up in the gallery. i was sooooo glad.

ok, back to the day. so we had 2 free english lessons again, only at the beginning we had to do some vocab stuff...then we "laughed" at cath for awhile about .. em.. better not say it out. ok.. her "c hing"....physics, which i didn't really understand..maths.. which was "sleeping lesson"...p.e.had an interesting lesson of softball. lunch... went with ash and cath and was being repeatedly teased..double chinese... for correcting each others' compo... and i was given a really low mark.....never mind...ai...

rk. because ash and i were talking about her being "pure" during lunch, and laughing hysterically about it. then at rk, we were discussing about "true happiness" and when we got to the part about "happy are those who are pure at heart" (errr. sorry.. forgotten the actual words) we were laughing like crazy lor....
and..... towards the end... b-flat said,"....happiness does not really mean thinking of how to get into the mix choir....and finding a future husband (?!) there " and ppl were snorting and laughing and ash and cath.. were.. saying something out loud that cannot be heard by Bb.... aii... the same old incident again...... class target ...wah...
had a full orch rehersal... sko was pretty touchy today, she picked on the cellos less than i expected.. still..
stayed after orch for awhile and played for jen's bassoon... (basin)... then for the first time this year, finished all maths.. which is a miracle to me....
gotta have fencing and mix choir tomolo again......


you: take care ar...
p.s. : ohhh. nearly forgot.. laine told me that the 東京愛的故事 is actually 東京愛情故事 , or better yet. "Tokyo Love Story" thanks laine for the ammendments

The day after Valentine's Day. Weird expression huh..? Struggling to finish the Chinese composition with a very comlicated plot. I don't know if I'll be able to finish it tonight.Wish me luck lar. Survived through class assembly today, even everyone said they fell asleep during it. I on the other hand, can not afford to fall asleep. The only comment I heard was that the piano was too soft. Gosh... oh well... it's over anyway. Had some hectic "copying" lessons today like Chi. Hist. and Bio. I really couldn't hear what the "jodie" (haa) was saying, he was really fast and i couldn't copy the stuff fast enough. Then double Chinese for the start of the composition. History was talking about aeroplanes and stuff. Maths quiz (don't mention it anymore..........). Then in PTH, lwong asked what we had for lunch and we got somepretty interesting answers, including jpoon's "lo bo gao", which she had only 2 because she "had to do maths". Later J told me that that was not true. It's so strange, every PTH lesson, you could just sense her calling you to answer questions next. Luckily for me, I answered only 3 words. Then a very very "empty" Eng lesson, where we were supposed to do our screenplay, but because we've worked in the holidays, we can rest now... yeah!!!
Had fencing afterschool, finally signed my AYP P.E. section. The AYP exped. 2 days (interview and handing in log/plan book) clashed with inter choir and finals. Well i know we shouldn't put too much hope into Finals, but still....
Don't know why, I felt much "lighter" today, not as in weight, but in emotionally. Maybe I was affected by what happened last night. It certainly is one of the factors. How come I am so much affected?? But maybe also because I've made up my mind to "accept people as they are and not as i want them to be". Really, I'm not so much depressed as yesterday, or the week before, although I admit, I'm not exactly up in the clouds. Friday again tomorrow. So fast the week has passed.

you:..... *think of me, think of me fondly when we've said goodbye. remember me, once in awhile please promise me you'll try..*

valentine's day. nothing special, except seeing people walking around the street with flowers. a lot of them. and that people around the school were giving out meltykisses... a new favourite chocolate. but i admit, it is yummy. hee... i had a date with my.... youngest son... .. that is..... haaa... hint: i had string orch rehersal today. double lessons. pth.english. gosh... grady prejudiced us because "we were not native speakers but could read books like 'lord of the flies' ".... and she gave me such a low mark... rrrr... chinese hist. ..art...music... maths. then piano lessons. then had to practise the songs for the class assembly tomolo... wish me luck that i don't play it wrong in front of the whole school tomolo....opps. i'd totally forgotten about my "sentence structure" promise to myself. ok. i'll try again. actually valentine's day is a day for the flourist to make money. and the gift stores.
yesterday in cable ymc, i heard a person telling about his most memorable valentine's day. his gf was studying in japan. he called her that a friend of his will fly over and to give her a present from him. in the end, he was the present. he flew all the way to japan to be with her. that is soooo sweet... ai....
today at assembly, there was a sentence in the prayer : let me accept people as they are and not as what i want them to be. am i pushing too hard to "change" a person? and also: make me sensitive to the feelings of others...i want to have feelings not sooo sensitive, i mean... i worry all the time. maybe i shouldn't be too hard on myself, nor him.

you:.... wish you were here somehow....

i am going to keep my promise about the sentence structure. ok. opened the newspaper and saw our lovely headmistress right in the center of the photo. a pity that she had her head down. had an assembly rehersal for the first lesson, although very short, then maths... chinese.... h.e... i couldn't "tame" nor control the sewing machine properly. according to jchan, you have to know their characteristics and be nice to them. eh-hum.... and somehow, i didn't know mine was out of control and angry today, and the stitches were zig-zag when they were supposed to be straight, and straight when they were supposed to be zig-zag. did a "higher-class" french seam too. then lunch time. choir was cancelled and luckily for me i didn't have to go and find sko because had to discuss rcgm. after that, continued with the "cream" of the day -- eng.lit., history and map-reading. reunion-- meeting after haven't seen each other for a long time. and when we got to the "absence makes the heart grow fonder" part... some people started to have sly and evil looks on their faces. and when we got to the part about aleung asking us if we've ever had experiences... more evil grins were on... mo loi... in map-reading, ash answered dwong's question about whether bay sth was suitable for fishing. she said it was not because the fishermen will have to drag the fish up the hill and instantly a very comical picture formed inside my head. anyway, thid made the whole class laugh hysterically. in scribblez. cath wrote something that she said would make me kill her. she is still alive now, i did not do anything to her. but i was very -_-||||. but ash and cath, thanks for that. it was sweet of you guys.


you: luv ya always....

it's 12:30am, but i just can't go to sleep. i have so many things on my mind. i guess jen's right. optimistic when cheering others, yet super depressed at times. i had once promised myself not to bother my poor head with these things again, but somehow, it just isn't possible. the problem is, even i don't know what is the real problem, just a bunch of problems bundled all together. and it includes insecurity, incompleteness. if only these 2 can be changed ... without the "in-".
wishing upon a star. does it really work?

you: miss ya...

I have decided to post stuff with a more proper sentence structure, cause most of the time when i read it after i post, i confuse myself with what i said. Monday again. School after two days of "rest", but I don't see when i did have any rest though. The day seemed to go faster than most days, like tuesdays, when we have boring lessons like map reading and eng. lit. Had JMC rehersal today, gave poy a ride home (these days i seem to give her a lot of rides). It was the usual routine. Nothing special.
Watched the ending of the japanese drama 東京愛的故事. It was supposed to be the best drama of the millenium (voted by ppl there). But the ending was sorta... disappointing. Perhaps that was because I like "happy endings" better. The story was about a girl and a guy, there were going out together, but because the girl got a job transfer for L.A., and she knew the guy still liked another girl, she decided to break up with him. She disappeared, the guy had some ideas where she went to, and the guy's new gf, which was the one he liked before, let him go and find the girl, although she had doubts if the guy will ever come back to her again. sorry for all these guys and girls, but i don't want to type out those names again. In the end the girl told the boy, if he wanted her to stay, then go to the train station before a particular time. The boy was just a tiny little bit late, and the train was gone. In the train, the girl cried when thinking of the things she had gone through with this guy.
3 years later, the guy and his gf got married and once on the street, they met the girl again. The girl wouldn't give him any method to contact her, she said, it will be better if they just met on the street and chatted. And it was how the story ended. Even till the end of the story, the girl admitted she still love this guy, and it was painful, but she will keep it right down inside her heart. I nearly cried when I watched that part. it was sooo touching. and, it was so close to life, deep down inside me, i somehow wished that in real life, it would not be the same as in that drama. but it's hard, really hard.