What a coincedence, just as I was finishing the last entry, the phone rang... at that point, I could practically feel those tears rushing up. To avoid them from leaking out, I had to stop myself from talking, because if I did, I wouldn't be able to control myself. Towards the end, when I couldn't hold back anymore, the moment I hung up the phone, those tears immediately spilled out.
~The emotional me couldn't hold back. Somehow, I was really grateful to my bro. who tried to make me feel better despite my bad mood. Hehe, thanks gor! ^^. I guess part of the reason some of the grey-ness was washed away was because of what I knew he had done. Been too long since I could feel someone still cared and was concerned and even told someone to treat me better. Haha...thanks for everything ar. Despite having CEs you still bothered to take time to be concerned about me. =) Gor, thank you ar!!

Been so exhausted lately. So many to do. Slept at about 1am last night.
I guess that's the case of everyone else. Somehow ... well, maybe it's my problem ...

*Do you know what I am going through now? The long nights I've spent trying to finish the many work I have, the pressure I'm having, the feeling of missing someone, the things happening in school... Do you know how tiring it all is? I'm not asking for endless 2-hour long calls or messages, but just a word or two to show that you still care and remember the existence of me. Recently I feel that it's always me interrupting you at the wrong times, and that your precious time was taken away by me... You know, for the past 2 nights, especially last night, I nearly cried when I heard your voice. It's been so tough, with being sick and the workload, the expectations from people around... sometimes I just want a shoulder to cry on, or even just an ear to listen, or a word of comfort and understanding. Is that asking for too much?...I know I shouldn't depend on you entirely, but recently with a lot of my "pillars" having CE now, sorry, I had to rely on you....Maybe I'm expecting too much, maybe it's too idealistic...but.... I just want you to know...the pressure and everything is really killing now...
* 好辛苦呀...好想喊...

Been sick lately, probably because of not enough sleep throughout the month... well, not exactly, but a long time already. Got scolded at quite a lot of everything - phone, online, piano... anything imaginable. Easter holiday ending tomorrow, back to school la. Not quite used to it, the holiday seems so short even though it's supposed to be 1 and a half weeks long. With heaps of work still unfinished, I'm dead. Exhausted.
Everyone's either having CE preperation, or for some reason or another really busy.

*You: Don't worry, I'll take care of myself...although I don't mind some extra taking care of...^^