I've cleared my mind from all those stuff now. Thought it over now, decided not to let it influence me. Afterall, if you look at it in my way, it's really not my fault at all. I did the things that I was supposed to do, even more. If things turned out that way, ... it had nothing to do with me.
If I was not to be treasured... (maybe... that is true....) I could do nothing about it.

^.^
Don't worry, I'm perfectly fine.