In MMLC, music lesson. Supposed to be doing the score thing, but forgot to bring it here.
Inter Choir rehersal from lesson 4 to 6 in a while. And competition in the afternoon. Going to die...
Not to mention string orch rehersal... Smc rehersal... full orch....~dead....

AH... nothing la... it's here now.

I am so boiling mad... I have just written such a long entry when it said something was wrong and deleted everything.....!!

At school now, waiting for a SMC rehersal at 4:30. Have had all sorts of rehersals from day till night. Luckily we don't have to do it until 9sth today. But tomorrow,... yah...again. Today at Inter Choir we talked about the real meaning of the our own choice "Where dwells the soul of my love"... Sigh... Maybe it's because of that experience, I find that feeling really easy to master. Not hard at all and it can easily come out. I only hope it doesn't come out that much. But it's hard, since it's so similar... and... actually, I've thought of that question for some time. However, it really isn't fair to do so, especially when my brain has 2 feelings at the same time. `sigh.. What in heck should I do? Starting to feel a bit restless... and... helpless. Indeed nothing can help me except myself. Because it's my life, my own feelings, and I should be the one who knows me best... If even I don't know what to do, then who will? I wish I knew the answer to that. All those questions actually. It is so bothering. It's bugging me again.
Inter Girls Choir competition tomorrow. We're actually quite dead. But who knows? The adjudicators are so psycho that they may give it to us. And may not. Let's just wish that we do our best anyway. Oh. and SMC on saturday. Sigh....Hate helpless and awkward situations. The world is like that, you can't avoid things you don't like. It's life, the very hateful life. Because it never seems to be able to give you what you want....

The situation suddenly turned 360 degrees. He asked me to forgive him for his selfishness and greed. ~sigh. One of my utter disadvantages is being too "soft-hearted", so therefore, you guys must have known the outcome. I'm back to normal now, finally.
I still haven't told gor about it, don't know how he'll react. Maybe he's going to get mad again and say I'll regret. Or he may just be ...relieved that he won't be the person making me down.
Very hectic this week. Music Festival rehersals are ever so packed. Almost every lunch, every afterschool. Today SMC sang in assembly and it was actually quite good. Maybe that's the characteristics of our choirs and teams and orchs. Rehersals are never perfect, but somehow the performances and competitions tend to be better. Wish it's like that la.
Sigh... still haven't had the time to "garp" with kelvin on the piano. Going to be dead, with only less than 2 weeks to go.
This lunch is a rare non-busy one, but it still goes fast...