It hurts so much.
Really really painful.....

I'm down now. Down in the pits.....
Why..... why does it have to happen like that??......
The only reason I have is that it was my fault, didn't have enough charm in me to hold on to him...
It's 3am now, got piano lesson at 9:30am in the morning and I can't get to sleep. So much emotion is in me. ~sighh.. it really really hurts.