Sunday, May 20, 2001

BLOG CLOSED FOR 3 WEEKS.
EXAM...

What's the point guys? You're somehow unsatisfied, yeah I know that. It's obvious isn't it? But then the solution to tell someone you're unsatisfied is to act...unfriendly and inch. I mean, what's the use if you're unsatisfied but you actually don't allow people to know why you are. Ok, so in your point of view, I've "done" something wrong and you're pissed off. So what do you want? To continue to have a target to be inched everyday? Or a person to inch everytime a screename is changed? To post "entertaining" messages in someone's guestbook? Or is it that to inch a person that she actually knows a little german...

You're probably going to say I'm "inch" after reading this. Or maybe your hatred in me will increase, although I absolutely have no idea why. But with every word I'm saying..it comes from my heart. And whether you want to release your feelings or continue being unfriendly.. it's your choice.

*Reach for the stars, yes, I've always told myself*
*Did I ever have any great friends who stood by me just like I stood by them?*
*Yes, maybe, once upon a time...*

Maybe I did a good deed.. by getting low marks in eng de. Some people were so happy that they jumped out from their seats to spread the message....
Could it have been my *silence* that cause great joy to everyone?
Streaming... I'm not going to be in the same class as most of you guys, satisfied?
So now, I'm having a cold, the cough, a headache as well as a fever. I could almost see people rejoicing...

"Did I ever take anything for granted?"
No, honestly I haven't. Experience have already told me I shouldn't and I haven't. So, what's the punishment here then? *Uncertainties*. I wish I knew though.
Better make this entry short. Gonna be killed if my mum knew i'm online at 9sth in the morning.
My only wish, is to end 3x peacefully. Is that so hard to do?
Actually, I really envy the people who can start a new life somewhere else, be a new person, have a new environment...