The human mind and brain is pretty funny. You tell yourself that this is right and things have proved it right and you know it is right, somehow, your brain tells you it isn't. But you actually know. So very confusing. Or you know you really really shouldn't do or think of something, you can't control yourself from doing that even though your brain tried to hold you back to much. Is there any solution to this problem? Is this what people call self-control? OK, so I don't have self-control?
I know, I really know I shouldn't, but I keep doing it. In the end, it may be me who will get the hurt, but... I just don't know why I don't stop. Don't want to stop. Argh...