i was supposed to meet jess. and grace at 8:45 , but i woke up at that time and rushed out the door at the fastest time in history. i was only half an hour late. phew. but i'm not going to try it ever again. way too exciting. then after fencing, went with grace to meet jen at mong kok where jen was late...and we had to wait... then someone suddenly burst out and scared me. then... had a very expensive lunch and jen,,.... you still owe me $66!!!! then luckily met yue and had a ride.... thanks!!.. had mix rehersal.. we met the headmaster and had a very interesting conversation like this:
him," nei dei seung lei lin choir ar?"
us."eh..... (silence)
him,"mei dou nei dei ar?",
us, " hai ar hai ar"....
so funny, like none of the three of us dared to say anything and we were so shocked to see him suddenly appear in front of us... haaa....
towards the end, someone found a pink plastic braclet lor... and zi suggested that it was hys people who left it there... haha.. so funny. then had to drive poy home.. when my mum asked her where shall we drop her off, i said, "yup mai hui lar." poy was giving me a very very evil grin.... and i plan on taking revenge on her.. since she sits right in front of me....
jen, sorry, i had no idea i was being distant tonight. i was having something on my mind, but i couldn't really explain what it was. i'm always like that, know there is something wrong, but do not know what it really is. you guys might say i'm too obsessed with... whatever lar, but i keeping having questions about it all the time. although i do not know why, i think one of the main reasons is being insecure. i know this sounds like not trusting him, but... it's hard not to have that thought. and the thought that this might not last for more than half a year more is very depressing. i know i may sound pessimistic, but it is the truth. when you have that thought in your mind, it feels really uncomfortable. like you actually know it will end but still you are continuing. i feel so down sometimes that i just want someone to hear me talk. and i mean "talk". the person who listens isn't really THE one i was hoping for. i was told once that i was too devoted. but, what is wrong with being devoted? i guess the interpretation of some people of "l_ _ _ " may be different from mine, but still, is the difference really that much? i hate to say this but we don't really know, like have a really deep understanding of each other. sometimes, when knowing that another people know much more about him than yourself, it really hurts inside. and even painful when that person asks you, "what? didn't you know? i thought he told you."
i just don't know what else i can do...
sorry people, for those incomplete sentence structures. but i just don't have the strength to type proper sentences...